Ang Totoo

   by Eireen Camille See Linang  

Di ko alam kung paano simulan,

Di ko alam kung anong kahihinatnan,

Ng totoong itinatago ko noon pa,

Sasabihin ko na kaya o mamaya na?

Naku! Hayan na siya!

Ang puso ko’y puno ng saya.

Ngunit di ko alam kung anong gagawin,

Ano kayang kalalabasan nitong lihim na damdamin?

Paano kaya kung may mahal na siyang iba?

Nararapat pa bang sabihin ko sa kanya ang aking nadarama,

O kikimkimin ko na lang ito at itaga sa bato,

At hayaang mapansin ang tibok ng puso ko?

Ano ang mabuti kong gawin?

Hay… Nasayang na naman ang pagkakataon.

Sana hindi na lang tumatakbo ang oras sa t’wing kami’y magkasama,

Upang masabi ko na sa kanya ang aking nadarama.

SONNET 143

      by: Linang, Manansala, Remandaban (IV- Platinum; SY 2008-2009) 

Do we meant to have just one chance to meet

And then suddenly parted endlessly

Like the world is against us entirely

Like fate is tearing my heart bit by bit

I cannot stand anymore and deceit

Because I’m just killing myself softly

Alone. All by myself ultimately

And that’s the nightmare I try to defeat

As I wait to the slow time to drag on

A shadow snickers taking up your place

I thought maybe love is cruel for me

As I wait on a ray to break the dawn

In bareness I stand a gloomy disgrace

Can’t you see how poetic love can be?

Estrangherong Samaritano

 by Eireen Camille See Linang 

Nonentity

by Eireen Camille See Linang

Have you ever encountered to sit beneath the stars

Hoping God will soon heed your cry from afar?

Have you ever noticed the sun at its zenith,

And still hoping for the one you love to be with?

Is to be forsaken is to be loved in a special way,

Abandoning a heart that’s still hoping day by day?

Is it right for you to be detained ,

Though even fragmentary evidence of his love didn’t remained?

Is there any reason why he caused upheaval to your soul’s gale,

Like you’re hiking solely in a precipitous mountain trails?

Is it true that the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn,

When in loneliness you walk in this life’s imperishable road alone?

Is to be forsaken is to be loved in a special way,

Abandoning a heart that’s still grieving day by day?

Is it accurate for you to be in this kind of maze,

Yet sometimes you wish it will soon be ready to raze?

Same Old Story

by Eireen Camille See Linang

In every girl’s life,

She yearned to be the prince’s wife.

In every girl’s dream,

There would always be fairies in dim.

In every girl’s imagination,

There were lives in God’s creations.

In every girl’s discoveries,

There’s magic with unanswerable queries.

In every girl’s childhood years,

It begins with fairytales that seems too near.

In every girl’s childhood fantasy,

It ends with a happy ending allegory.

But as a little girl’s wits nurture

These things seem to be distant sure.

Lucky that there is true love,

That could put these enchanted thoughts come to life.

Masked Love

by Eireen Camille See Linang

I am a stalker.

A stalker, not a joker.

A stalker, who tries to follow you wherever, whoever.

A stalker who hides whenever you look back.

A stalker  who gaits whenever you’re with her,

A stalker who waits until the dark sets over,

A stalker who is obsessed to talk to you,

A stalker who only see is your face in any view.

A stalker who  tries to be in gaiety whenever you’re with somebody,

A stalker who smiles whenever you’re happy,

A stalker who cries whenever you’re sad,

and a stalker who is proud whenever you lend a hand.

I am a stalker.

A stalker, not a joker.

A stalker, who tries to follow you wherever, whoever.

I am a stalker and a lover.

I guess.

Unconditional Love

by Eireen Camille See Linang

You’ve never taught me how to love you,

You’ve just showed me the world’s most colorful view.

You’ve never let me feel “freedom” – that never bare,

You’ve just let me feel a mother’s tender loving care.

You’ve never let me taste the chocolates I want to buy since before,

You’ve just let me taste the indescribable rust-taste syrup- I abhorred.

You’ve never let me walk continuously to the path I’ve wanted to take,

You’ve just let me go back to you when I’m in the midst of confusions -‘til it breaks.

You’ve never let me feel that you’re ready to catch me when I fall,

You’ve just stood before me and became my shadow after all.

You’ve never told me that I’m better than my sisters,

You’ve just shown me that I’m the best in your eyes forever.

You’ve always let me tell you how much I love you dear Mother,

But I’ve never ever shown how truly worth this world with you and me together.

Hand To Mouth Existence

by Eireen Camille See Linang

The clouds cry that night,

And your shadow was on my sight.

A girl was on your right,

Sharing on one umbrella so tight.

My heart secretly weep,

My mind flew on steep,

My eyes drown too deep,

Because of the pain I tried to keep.

The darkness unfolds that day,

And I have nothing more to say.

I think I must stay away,

But you’re always on my way.

The clouds cry that night,

 And your shadow was out of my sight.

Wishing the next time the clouds will cry at night,

I’ll be the girl on your right, holding you so tight.

sUnKen heaRT ღღ

by Eireen Camille See Linang

Forgetting you with no good reason

Is like abnegating unusual person.

It gives me a complete melancholy

Cause its impossible to conquer this agony.

All those oaths you pledge,

All the bizarre dreams you dreamt with me,

And all the love that me and you shared,

Are all the things I remember every time I hear your name. 

But worry no more, stop your agitation.

Soon I will ponder and understand your decision.

I know it’s impossible,

But for your happiness, ill make it possible.

The Unexpected Gift

The Unexpected Gift

by Eireen Camille See Linang

        It was in the year 2004, when I was in 5^th grade, our adviser, Mrs. Andres, always asked us to write and rewrite letters. She wanted us to be good conversationalists someday in and out of our country.

            One day, she assigned us an activity to make a friendly letter to tell the author how great his work is. The next day, our teacher picked the best work and I was shocked when she announced that I was the one who had the best work. I felt nervous and a little bit flattered because that was the first time to know that I had a potential in writing my own ideas and also expressing my own feelings about the story I have read.

       Weeks later, just about in the beginning of September, a teacher asked us to write a short story about nutrition because it was nutrition month at that time and they would pick some stories and poems that could be published in our school newspaper. So all of us tried to join in the said story making. At the end of the school year, all the school newspapers were all distributed. I was kind of shocked because my work was picked and was published in our school newspaper.

       I thought that it would be my last work to be published. But I was wrong.

         July of last year (2007), I read a newspaper from our magazine box and I have read that there is a gift that waits for whoever will contribute his own composition. Because I was curious of the said gift, I quickly contributed my  three poems through the internet. After a month I didn’t expect that two of my works would be published in the school paper and the newspaper that I was published on was the school paper that was given to all the teachers in the division.

       I realized that it’s not the gifts that count. It’s the joy I’ve felt while sharing my thoughts and feelings through my writings.

For Unknown

by Eireen Camille See Linang

I don’t know what to do 

Every time I see you

But even though I think of something to do

I always end up of starring at you.

I don’t know why I’m feeling this way

Cause it seems that I always want you to stay

But even though I try to hide my feelings

I always end up of praying all my longings.

I know it’s impossible to be me and you 

So I always write a poem just for you 

I hope you will appreciate it all 

Because in you, I'm starting to fall.

Am I Enough?

by Eireen Camille See Linang

I know

you know I’m just

a little child

who doesn’t know the world

but

I also know

that a little child

will soon be a man.

I know

how much you cared for me,

for so many years you guided me

but

I also know

that it’s my time to prove

myself that I am independent enough

to walk in this world alone.

I know

you know which is

the right way I must choose

but

I also know

that I must learn my mistakes

from my own decisions.

Both of us are right

Equally have pleasant reasons

So, can we have a private discussion?

Why?

by Eireen Camille See Linang

I don’t know who you really are,

I don’t know whether you’re near or far,

I don’t even know your physical appearance,

I also don’t know why I change for instance.

I know that I’m just a lil’ sister to you,

I know that I’m just a friend you can talk to,

But why there’s something I’m hiding inside of my heart?

Though in my heart you have a special part.

I don’t know if I’m falling for you

I don’t know if this feeling is true,

All I know is I’m always thinking of you,

Wishing that you’re thinking of me too.

Goodbye Friend?

by Eireen Camille See Linang

A friend of mine,

Smiling at me so fine.

I don’t know what to do,

So I go wherever she will go.

Just as the wind rolls by,

She says her last goodbye.

I don’t know how to react,

For so many years that were intact.

But I’m just a friend,

Who can only lend a hand ‘til the end.

All I can do is to hold on,

To her promise to come back again.

Many years had passed by,

And my world needs to say goodbye.

Only one question remain on my mind,

“Can I still be your friend ’til the last breath of mine?”

You Brighten Up My Day

by Eireen Camille See Linang

Once my life is empty,

Colors in my world are only three-

Black, white and gray,

Oh how I wish a friend will come and stay.

Until my greatest day came,

When we just happened to see by fate.

With you I want to live,

For you, my heart I will give.

Knowing you,

Bring more hue.

My life become exciting,

And very interesting.

Now I think we need to separate,

But I want to thank you first,

For making my world a fantasy,

That is only ordinary.

I Can’t Deny It

by Eireen Camille See Linang

Why do I keep on following you?

Though you always treat me like a wind.

Why do I always dream of you?

Though a second my name doesn’t come to your mind.

Why do I always look for you?

Though you look for someone else.

Why do I cry for you?

Though you won’t even shed a tear for me.

Why do I love you?

If you won’t give I love I gave to you.

Why does my heart can deny all my feelings?

But my mind always recognizes it.

Interminable Love

by Eireen Camille See Linang

If only I can ease my life from aching,

I shall not live in pain.

If only I can stop my heart from breaking,

I shall not live in vain.

If only I can teach myself from right falling,

I shall not live in my anticipation.

If only I can manage my eyes from future-seeing,

I shall not live in my illusion.

If only I can control my mind from thinking,

I shall not live in my imagination.

If only I can tell you what I am feeling,

I shall not live in my compunction.

No One Compares to You

 by Eireen Camille See Linang

I tried to take the pain by finding someone new,

But then I came to realize, no one compares to you.

And even I look around pretending not to cry,

I'll always go back to the day you finally said goodbye.

But now, I know you'll never come back,

I don't know why my heart is still unlock.

Still waiting for you to love me again,

Even though it's too late to say " I'm sorry for all the pain."

I don't want to be addicted to your love,

All I want is to be free like a dove.

But no matter what I do,

I still feel the same way for you.